I haven't forgotten about you, dear reader.

Things have not been easy lately. I lost my beloved golden retriever, Gabriel, and the only thing that gets me through that thought without popping a vein is the idea of giving another little puppy a good home. Maybe I'll post more about that later, but I'm drained right now. The holiday was low-key, but decent once I finally got done with my family. A bit of aggravation there, and I'm not sure if it's over or not. I'm also without a gall bladder now.

Meh. The short version, dear reader, is that things have been rough here, and I needed a break. I think I'm ready to post again, though, and I got a better camera for Christmas, so I should be able to post more and better videos for ya. I've already got some that I will probably put up soon.

So thanks for your patience, or else thanks for rediscovering me over here.

Da Scoop

Wanna know what's going on?



So do I.

Practice Makes Perfect

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What?

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In other news, I've been rather moody lately, and I've been putting pretty high demands on people. I think I know why.

In the simplest terms, people, I'm lonely.

Ugh, gag. Sounds pathetic, huh? Well, it feels pathetic. I hate this. I end up making myself look stupid and desperate and many other very unattractive things. It's not the person I want to be. What really sucks is that I see it happening, and I can't stop the course.

So if I've jumped to conclusions or placed undue demands on you, I apologize. (Treasure it. I hate to apologize.) It seems like all of the people I end up relying on for certain things all move away.

That's one of the things I treasure in Greg the most these days: he really is the one constant in my life, and you should all thank him for taking the brunt of this. It really makes me more bearable to the rest of you, trust me.

I've been thinking a lot lately about my friendships. I'm not an easy person to BE friends with, I know. I wish I could label for you what it is I am looking for, or what quality I need out of my friendships. I don't know.

Believe me, though, the older I get, the more difficult it seems to be to make friends, and I'm at a point in my life that I do need to make friends.

I don't know what else to say on that right now. Just, I'm lonely.

Practice, Practice

Stupid microphone.

Testing

Move along, move along. Just your basic "hey, I got a cam" post.

Nothing to see here.

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Damnit, I said move along.