You see, not long ago, I was visiting a friend of mine, and when I went to use the bathroom, I saw myself in a huge mirror. Ladies and gentlemen, I am fat. It struck me then how brave it is to even own a mirror so big!
How does gay.com have anything to do with this? Well, gay.com has just updated their website. Disastrously. They have so much down time, and the site was so poorly tested that I have not been sitting online at night chatting, looking for god only KNOWS what (not that I'd be likely to find it there, even if I DID know what I was looking for!)
| Instead, I've been getting back into my yoga practice. I've been watching this video, in particular, and similar videos. The grace, the beauty that this guy moves with is amazing to me. I will probably never be as flexible as this guy is, but I want to cultivate some part of that grace in myself. |
What I really want to do is to find what my body was designed to do. You know how when you're watching an animal do what it was born to do? A golden retriever fetching things, or a herding dog running in huge circles around a field? And how beautiful they look, doing what their bodies were created to do? Well, I want some part of that. I wish I could find what my body was designed to do, so that maybe I could make myself look how I should look. Sappy as it is, I want to be beautiful.So there you go. I'm trying to take all of this wasted energy and desire and do something constructive with it. We'll see how it goes.
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